Choices – April 3 2007

Life is all about choices, you havta make the right ones to keep on the right track and you can make bad ones and lose everything you have!!!

You get to choose almost everything in your life… Some of us don’t have that right, some have others to make up their minds or even make the choices for them… Sorry but those people are lame… If you don’t get to choose your own life then sorry pal, I don’t respect you!!! But what if it was me not being able to make my own choices? Or even was forced into some??? Will I lose my self respect?? OF COURSE

I can’t live as a shadow, I am me, I make my own life, hell I’ve been through hell all alone without letting a single ass forcing me into anything at all and I won’t let anyone do that to me ever!!!

For those who don’t know me, I am the most stubborn person you’ll eva come a cross in your entire life, YES it is my way or the freaking high way…

This doesn’t mean I don’t care about others, I do, I put stuff before my eyes and think day and night before I do anything at all…

I’m facing now two beautiful choices, the first is from K.O.C (Kuwait Oil Company), a job as a contract engineer with a high very high salary and another from an unknown company that I’ve neva heard of wanting me to work for them as a construction engineer and they sounded like they want me so bad claiming that they know all about my senior project from college and stuff, I told them about K.O.C and the guy said he can double that money just to get me working for them. I told him I need to think about it.

I always wanted to work for K.O.C and it was one of my dreams, I went through alot of examinations and an interview jus to get in… But those other people jus want me as me!!! They know who I am, They know alot about me!!! And I have three weeks to think before I start working for K.O.C.

I couldn’t sleep at night, will I give up my dream job jus for money?!! I dunno… I didn’t share those thoughts with anyone, I dun want another perspective… I know what I want, and….

I won’t work for either companies… ME GONNA DO MBA (Master of Business Administration)

Like A Slap On The Face..Wednesday March 29 , 2006

Have you ever re-wrapped a gift and given it to someone else? Oh my god! YOU HAVE?

Ok, I’m not talking to YOU! Let me ask the others: Did you give a gift to someone and felt very disappointed about the way they react? What is wrong with acting a little surprised or excited? Do not tell me you can not pretend ’cause everybody can.

Can’t you atleast be nice??

I sometimes wonder if they’re rude or they’re just stupid. Anyway, you do what you have to do. I am not disappointed nor depressed. Well, maybe a little. However, Papillona is not one to feel depressed for long, nothing keeps me down for long actually. Just that once in a while, I do feel emotional. It’s probably that time of the month. It’s around the corner.

Hey I’m only human. I never demand anything in return. It’s a gift but it feels good if the recipient knows how to appreciate the gift. Don’t you think?

Unconditional Love ……. June 1st 2007

I just can’t absorb the idea of conditional love, there isn’t such a thing as a conditional love. It just doesn’t make sense to me, how can love be conditional in the first place!! It is interesting that some may adopt the concept of “Conditional Love”!!

The nature of love is to be unconditional, to totally fall head over heals, to levitate and fully give and not wait for a return, refunds do not exist, to willingly compromise to keep moving, to ultimately unite and witness each other’s lives and to accept each others flaws.

Love is pure and simple, the love of your best friend, the love siblings, the parental love and any form that love may take. We are humans and that is unconditional, there aren’t states for conditional feelings, breathes, or even the heart beats. Those are emotions, no one can govern such intangibles, those aren’t attitudes or actions that one might cultivate or change it according to circumstances. We do not add attributes to the equation in order to steer it as we wish.

I love you for who you are, for what you resemble, for everything that you are and everything that you do, for yourself. I ain’t having conditions to change the way I feel!! I love you and that’s it. Love isn’t complicated and isn’t an object to shape it the way we see fit. What would this world turn to be if we start to apply restrictions to our emotions and specially when it comes to love!!!

Why would someone apply conditions for emotions, I just don’t get it. Who was it that brought up the idea of unconditional love as love itself isn’t that in its absolute meaning. You do give and you do occasionally get, we change, we evolve and we adapt with our loved ones changes.

We love and we hate, and there are moments when love might seem isn’t in its right place, but we don’t switch it off or shift it to the other channel. Disagreements may rise but it doesn’t effect our true emotions at all, it doesn’t mean we should love less turn the knob into another channel. Gray areas do not exist in love, emotions either fall in love category or permanently placed in another segment. Even if the one we love develops new habits and change in attitude, we still love them for what they used to be and guide them back if they ever stray. In our ups and downs we endeavor into one fact that we shall never in any circumstances overlook our emotions.

There are no exceptions and no extreme cases for love to be conditional, it simply loses its ultimate meaning if that is the case. Even if by some miraculous way one might be drained out of love, it just doesn’t mean that there are conditions, it simply takes another form and then it resurrects all over again. If it doesn’t, then it wasn’t love, it was something entirely different.

Well I kept on checking the older blogs and I loved their posts. So I will have these tribute posts for older bloggers from time to time. Today I will be starting with Enigma.

Minister of Interior- for a day……… March 7th 2007

Now that we don’t have a government, everyday I will be in charge of a new ministry. Today I’m the Minister of Interior (since that’s the one that needs the most work!). That’s what I would do.

• Traffic Week: This has been long forgotten. My traffic week will be totally different. For a week, cops will drive around the country undercover AND FINE THE HELL out of the drivers!!!!!!!!!!!
  • If you cut people off, you’ll be FINED.
  • If you change lanes without using a signal, you’ll be FINED.
  • If you do betweens (especially bel za7ma), you’ll be FINED.
  • If you stop and stare at accidents, you’ll be FINED.
  • If you speed, you’re FINED.
  • No seatbelt? Be6agag, DIE you mf*ing waste of space.

My version of Traffic week will take place once every month, randomly.

• All police cars will keep a huge, folded, black curtain in their trunks. If their is an accident, they will unfold the curtain and cover the entire accident. Another cop will wait by the accident and fine every car that stops and stares.

• All those cameras will be replaced by mobile digital cameras. That way, speeders won’t know where they are, and if they are caught, the fine entners the database immediately. No chance of dropping it whatsoever. Make sure that no fines can get cancelled unless they are paid in full.

• Make sure all laws are enforced. Even if you are a pretty girl with nice hair and nails, you’ll still go to jail. And you kashkha boy with the hot ride, we’ll lock away your car for a month. And there’s nothing your daddy can do about it.