Ramadan without my mother struck me yesterday when they announced that today is Ramadan. Every year, the first one I call to congratulate is my mother. Once it was announced yesterday I picked up my phone an knew that I can’t call her. I went back home crying knowing that today will not be the same.

As I entered the house today, it was gloomy. Usually the first day of Ramadan I would see my mum arranging the table for us. Even when she was really sick and barely can pick herself, her family was a priority for her. I would see that special yereesh dish just for me without onions. A special dish that I will never have again. She would pour the Qamar Al-deen and once its time, she would ask us to wake up our dad and starts pouring the soup for all of us. She would leave the table to take care of our kids while we eat and make sure we had our food.

As I sat on the table today, it was empty. My moms dishes were not there. As my dad came he poured me some of that Qamar Al-deen he made. He started crying, as my tears started flowing too. I wished for once to see her. Our first Ramdan without my mother was hard.

It’s not about the food, or the best ad or who falls in love in a tv show. It’s about having my mother sitting with us in the table. Just seeing her there made a difference in the family. No matter how our moods were no matter how angry we were. Seeing our mum made Ramadan special.

Today I say Ramadan isn’t the same………..

17 Comment “Ramadan Isn’t The Same WIthout Mum”
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    Q8iyadownunder Says:

    July 20th, 2012 at 09:24

    I had tears running down my cheeks when I read this post, Allah yer7amha inshallah. Today I was about to loose my mother and two brothers in a car accident bas 7amdilla Allah 7efath’hom, it would have been terrible if they didn’t come back home and I really do feel your pain. Allah e5alelkom el waleed oo kel el ahal :)

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    om 7amza Says:

    July 20th, 2012 at 10:49

    الله يرحمها. دمعت عيني الام ما تتعوض

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    Sheikha Says:

    July 20th, 2012 at 11:39

    Dame3at 3ainy 3ala your post, الله يرحمها يا رب

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    Um Hamani Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 01:15

    Your post bought tears to my eyes .. I know how you feel I too lost my mother and even though many years have past it’s never the same without her. Allah yer7am amwatna we can only pray for them now.

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    Jacqui Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 01:38

    Allah yer7am’ha.. Wallah edma3at 3ainy 3ala hal post.. I can’t say I understand and I can’t say that it’ll get easier, it will only be softer to bare as time goes by but she is always there for you in spirit.

    Allah ekhaleeeh your dad and the rest of your family o eghamid roo7 your mom el janna enshalla.

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    swera Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 03:11

    nothing will ever be the same, things will get harder day after day but we try to move on! Allah yer7amha ya rb o y’3amed ro7ha eljanna!

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    owlolive Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 03:39

    I am so sorry for your loss and for the pain you feel. I cannot possibly imagine the level of grief that you are going through at this time. I also can’t imagine what kind of strength it takes to not only recover from this loss, but to also remain the positive presence that you and Hers are. You should know that, in your persistent strength despite these heartbreaking times, you are both inspiring.

    Allahoma er7amha wa askinha fasee7 janatik ya rab.

    She will definitely be in my prayers and my dua3a2 inshallah.

    All my love!

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    R SpiRiT Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 05:17

    allah yr7amha bra7mita walla dami3at 3ainy laman girait el post

    allah yr7amha o yr7am mawta el moslmeen … AMEEEN YA RAB EL 3ALAMEEN

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    Aether (Slashy) Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 05:39

    I can’t stop crying after reading your post. I miss my mother too and I feel the same exact way. May they all rest in peace and find endless happiness.

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    Q8Stig Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 05:43

    Maybe it is time to remember how you love your mom, and what she deserves from your side! pray for her and read Qur’an on her behalf and Enshalla Ajer will be for both of you.
    Allah yer7amha enshalla, Am sure she’s a proud mom.. and she misses you too.

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    iMaGiNaTiOn Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 06:04

    Allah yer7mha . the last 2 years I was in Sydney , having Ramadan without mom. Life won’t be the same without her . Just try to pray for her all the time and be thankful of what she did in raising you . Allah yer7mha

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    PinkGirlQ8 Says:

    July 21st, 2012 at 08:28

    من شفت عنوان البوست وانا دموعي اربع اربع .. ولا شي بالدنيا يعوض شوفتها وقعدتها
    وايد حاسه فيك لانه صارلي ٤ سنوات وليلحين قلبي يعورني لكن العزاء انها راحت عند اللي افضل منا راحت عن رب العالمين وباذن الله بيكونون بمكان وايد احسن من هالدنيا الفانيه وما لنا غير الدعاء وعسى ربي يجمعنا فيهم بالجنه يارب

    عسى ربي يمسح على قلوبكم ويصبركم

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    memoq8 Says:

    July 22nd, 2012 at 09:22

    الله يرحمها و يجعل مثواها الجنة .. وان شاءاالله ربي يمسح على قلوبكم و يصبركم .. كلنا ماشين بهالدنيا .. و اهي محتاجة الدعاء لها .. ربي يسهل اموركم و يصبرطك

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    ChiحleB Says:

    July 22nd, 2012 at 12:54

    الله يرحمها ويغمد روحها الجنه
    اتذكر يوم توفه يدي
    الألم اللي يمر الانسان فيه لمن يفقد غالي يذبح
    يحتاج الانسان قوه, يحتاج ايمان قوي بأنهم راحوا مكان افضل
    فقدان عزيز شي وايد صعب…مهما مر من الزمن نظل نشتاقلهم و نتمنى دقايق تجمعنا معاهم
    حتى حنتاا علي اشتقتلها و لمن يزفني :’)
    الله يصبرك

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    HiKuwait Says:

    July 26th, 2012 at 10:03

    قطعت قلبنا بهالبوست.. الله يرحمها ويصبركم ، مالكم الا الدعاء لها بالرحمة والمغفرة بهذا الشهر الفضيل

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    zamzam Says:

    August 05th, 2012 at 03:18

    الله يرحمها ويغد روحها الجنه دايما اول مره اصعب شي الله يصبركم

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